This has become a full blown Hurrication.
I do not have class again until Monday. This may even change if NYU and their dorms are STILL without power by then, but my guess is they won't let any more days slip away unless absolutely necessary.
Since I've got all this free time, I am going to use it.
I have actually done at least a little bit of work each day which is good. This morning I wrote a thing responding to the question Who Am I? for my Acting class. We had been given this assignment once before and he gave it to us again so that we might dig deeper. My two responses are VASTLY different from one another. And I think this time I, in fact, did dig deeper. So I'm glad for that. I actually might post it. It was pretty simple, but fairly revealing.
And since this hurricane has stranded so many people and whatnot, 1. I am sad for them but 2. I am happy to have made it through unaffected. And the horrible person inside of me is going to take advantage of this situation best I can.
How, you might ask. Well, by going to see Broadway shows of course! I am going to play the lotto for Wicked again tonight. I figure that there will be way less people making their way to the lotto today and so my chances are way better. If I am still unsuccessful with the lotto - which very well may be the case - I am going to utilize Roundabout Theater Company's offer for The Mystery of Edwin Drood in which I can show my MetroCard and get $20 tickets for tonight's performance! I'm certain this will work out even if Wicked fails me yet again.
Also, today is Halloween and as Ken Davenport has told me, attendance is usually down on this day. So I've got Sandy and Halloween on my side.
I also might go see Schuler Hensley in The Whale at Playwrights Horizons this weekend because I've got so much time! That is yet to be determined though. We shall see.
Anywhooo, I'm glad for this time to clear my head and see some things and get some work done.
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
5 day weekend. Possibly 9?
I am on my 4th day without school, second cancelled day, and with tomorrow already called off, I'll have had at least a 5 day weekend. Crazy! Lower manhattan (including NYU) was one of the places worst hit by Sandy and there are lots of power outages still, including the NYU dorms. So there is talk of what to do with Thursday and Friday. They are uncertain if power will be restored enough in time for classes to resume by then.
Being in Midtown East, essentially we were unaffected by the storm. I had to stay in basically all day yesterday, but the worst was it being really windy for a couple hours in the evening. The streets are not even thinking about being flooded, and I never lost power. My roommate and I have been saying that we totally won this hurricane versus the people in housing. I feel bad for them and have offered my kitchen shower to anyone who needs it and can get here, but I'm just really glad to have gotten through this with no problems whatsoever.
Ok, well that's not true. I still have my problem of eating all the food in the world, but that's not Sandy's fault.
Today is Wicked Day (for real - it's the actual anniversary) - Wicked turns 9 years old today, except all Broadway shows are cancelled tonight. BOO. But since I know I have tomorrow off, and it is likely that performances will resume tomorrow, I am going to go play the lotto again in hopes that I can see it as close to it's birthday as possible.
I have gotten some work done, which is good and a bit surprising! I am going to do some work on fun things for me now and then maybe tonight I'll become motivated again to do real work.
I mean... I might have a whopping 9 days to finish it all, so I'm sure it will work out just fine.
Anyone else feel Sandy's wrath? Doing ok?
Being in Midtown East, essentially we were unaffected by the storm. I had to stay in basically all day yesterday, but the worst was it being really windy for a couple hours in the evening. The streets are not even thinking about being flooded, and I never lost power. My roommate and I have been saying that we totally won this hurricane versus the people in housing. I feel bad for them and have offered my kitchen shower to anyone who needs it and can get here, but I'm just really glad to have gotten through this with no problems whatsoever.
Ok, well that's not true. I still have my problem of eating all the food in the world, but that's not Sandy's fault.
Today is Wicked Day (for real - it's the actual anniversary) - Wicked turns 9 years old today, except all Broadway shows are cancelled tonight. BOO. But since I know I have tomorrow off, and it is likely that performances will resume tomorrow, I am going to go play the lotto again in hopes that I can see it as close to it's birthday as possible.
I have gotten some work done, which is good and a bit surprising! I am going to do some work on fun things for me now and then maybe tonight I'll become motivated again to do real work.
I mean... I might have a whopping 9 days to finish it all, so I'm sure it will work out just fine.
Anyone else feel Sandy's wrath? Doing ok?
Monday, October 29, 2012
Hunker Down
Well, Sandy's here. Oh no... she's almost here. Just windy and rainy outside. I even went out this morning. But, I think I'll stay safe and sound from here on out.
School was cancelled for tomorrow too. So now I've got a lovely 4 day weekend on my hands. But I still have to do a ton of work. And obviously I've yet to start that. I feel that something will happen this afternoon.
I really hope my power stays on. I'm worried it won't and that'll suck.
Also, this storm has gotten me progressively more depressed. I've been talking myself into eating all sorts of things that are bad for me because... well, you know, it's the end of the world, right? So what does it matter?
And then I hate myself after I eat it all. Which has led to my thinking about how no one will ever love me. (I know I'm over dramatic, but this is how my brain makes me feel. Sorry 'bout it.) I know that I'll always have friends that care about me and are there for me, but my desire to have a singular person to be connected to in a more intimate way (for longer than a drunken evening) has been ramping up majorly inside me.
Another problem I've been having - this one really being more of a life long thing - is that I hate myself for feeling these ways. And I don't think it's justified for me to feel like this. Because intellectually, I understand that there are people with so many other problems, so many bigger problems. And like, here I am, whining about no one loving me. Like Boo Hoo. Who gives two craps?
I also recognize the fact that apparently I am attractive to people, considering some of them keep deciding to do me, or at least make out with me. So, I should feel good about myself because of that right? Well, yeah I do. It's nice to know that someone wants to do those things with me - for whatever reason - and for however long - but when every single time it is so quickly taken away from me, it just sucks even more. What am I doing wrong with every single person?
This is also what makes me believe that I'm boring. Of the guys I've been with, a whopping... none have known me in a more personal way prior to us being together. So, it seems the attraction is purely physical and then I start talking and they retreat.
So yes... this storm. It seems to be fucking with my brain. But is it really the storm? Or is that just my excuse?
Anywho... Hopefully we live to see another day and Sandy doesn't eat us all for dinner.
School was cancelled for tomorrow too. So now I've got a lovely 4 day weekend on my hands. But I still have to do a ton of work. And obviously I've yet to start that. I feel that something will happen this afternoon.
I really hope my power stays on. I'm worried it won't and that'll suck.
Also, this storm has gotten me progressively more depressed. I've been talking myself into eating all sorts of things that are bad for me because... well, you know, it's the end of the world, right? So what does it matter?
And then I hate myself after I eat it all. Which has led to my thinking about how no one will ever love me. (I know I'm over dramatic, but this is how my brain makes me feel. Sorry 'bout it.) I know that I'll always have friends that care about me and are there for me, but my desire to have a singular person to be connected to in a more intimate way (for longer than a drunken evening) has been ramping up majorly inside me.
Another problem I've been having - this one really being more of a life long thing - is that I hate myself for feeling these ways. And I don't think it's justified for me to feel like this. Because intellectually, I understand that there are people with so many other problems, so many bigger problems. And like, here I am, whining about no one loving me. Like Boo Hoo. Who gives two craps?
I also recognize the fact that apparently I am attractive to people, considering some of them keep deciding to do me, or at least make out with me. So, I should feel good about myself because of that right? Well, yeah I do. It's nice to know that someone wants to do those things with me - for whatever reason - and for however long - but when every single time it is so quickly taken away from me, it just sucks even more. What am I doing wrong with every single person?
This is also what makes me believe that I'm boring. Of the guys I've been with, a whopping... none have known me in a more personal way prior to us being together. So, it seems the attraction is purely physical and then I start talking and they retreat.
So yes... this storm. It seems to be fucking with my brain. But is it really the storm? Or is that just my excuse?
Anywho... Hopefully we live to see another day and Sandy doesn't eat us all for dinner.
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Sandycakes
Hey there. It's been a while. Alright... what to update you on...
Well, presently Sandy is working her way towards the NYC. Classes have been cancelled for tomorrow and potentially for Tuesday. We will know tomorrow midday, but my guess is yes. So I'm hunkering down in my apartment. We are located just outside of Zone C as of this afternoon. I'm just praying our power stays on because that would be nice.
Leading up to this... The week was the week.. pretty normal.
Friday night - I had an audition. Didn't get it. Oh well. Then I went to see some friends. Alexandra and Jason have an apartment up town and Lori was in the city visiting. I know Alexandra from my Red Door days, Jason went to the same high school as me, but was there when my brother was in school, and Lori and I did a show called Piecemeal at the Majestic a few years ago.
We hung out at their place for a while and pregamed. Had a few drinks, but what really got me going was these Rummy Bears that Jason made. Rum soaked Gummy Bears. I did not like the taste, but what I found to be good about them was that I could just let them slide down my throat. WOO. Apparently like 3 of them equaled one shot. I had at least 15... possibly 20.. or more. I lost count.
So I was sufficiently boozed up and we went down town to the East Village to this bar called Marie's Crisis. Let me tell you, if there was ever a bar built for Bryan, it was this one. Small place, and there is a piano on one wall. And everyone stands around this piano all night. The guy plays. What does he play? Showtunes. DONE. Also... everyone there knows EVERY. SINGLE. WORD. It was quite heavenly for me.
My friend Lori got to sing solo which was great and kinda got "discovered" and offered an audition for The Voice. Pretty fancy stuffs. We also met this guy, Troy, that Lori had done The 25th Annual Putnam County Spelling Bee with at the Majestic a couple years ago. Lori foolishly told us that he was single before we got there. So.... well, ok. I'll preface this with the fact that I had a whole debacle with the Spelling Bee my senior year of HS. It was incredibly frustrating, but it's far too long a story to tell here and now. Any how.. so I saw Lori and Luis (another one of my friends) in the show. And I love it so much, I added the rest of the cast on Facebook because I wanted to know them. hahaha
So I don't know if I had ever really met Troy before, but I've seen him on the book of faces often enough. And come to find out... he'd seen me ;). SO. We like... re-meet at the bar. And fairly quickly we start to come in contact with each other. You know... in the ways.
I mean that was a fun night. Singing showtunes, drinkin drinks, makin out. Ultimately I ended up going home alone, which was probably for the best because I have serious issues with not caring about getting a home run my first time up to bat. And thus far, mainly, it hasn't ended all that well for me when things begin like that.
Friday night was enjoyable. Saturday night was enjoyable for different reasons. I planned to just have a lazy night with my roommate. Didn't happen too much. Ended up going to Shake Shack with her and then one of her friends met us there and came back here. Then I had to go collect for BC/EFA at Wicked and when I got back... we started drinking. In all reality, I didn't have that much, but I was pretty crazy. But I was crazy before I even began drinking.. so I dont know.
Earlier in the day I had texted R (from The Sparrow party about a month ago... see blog post Sometimes We Have Messy Hair) I knew he would be at The Sparrow that day so I asked how he liked it. He stopped talking to me about 2 weeks ago. So I was actually very surprised to get a response. And eventually he asked if I was going to this Fundraiser for an NYU show at Brad's down by NYU. I went to that and saw him and also G (kid who wanted me and then ignored me after I got him a ticket and brought him to Into The Woods in the park in August. Yeah.. he's kinda a bitch). But things were mostly awkward.
That all made me sad because it seemed that things with R were going well, and then at some point, I was completely undesirable. I have no idea why. I don't know what I did wrong. And even if I were to ask (which would be awks) I wouldnt get an answer. I truly dont understand why I'm apparently really attractive for one night (that must require alcohol) and then I am worthless and get ignored constantly.
So there we are. It all seems to come back to that awfully quickly. I also never told you about the guy who is crazier than I am! But this post is plenty long enough already.
See you around the blogosphere!
Well, presently Sandy is working her way towards the NYC. Classes have been cancelled for tomorrow and potentially for Tuesday. We will know tomorrow midday, but my guess is yes. So I'm hunkering down in my apartment. We are located just outside of Zone C as of this afternoon. I'm just praying our power stays on because that would be nice.
Leading up to this... The week was the week.. pretty normal.
Friday night - I had an audition. Didn't get it. Oh well. Then I went to see some friends. Alexandra and Jason have an apartment up town and Lori was in the city visiting. I know Alexandra from my Red Door days, Jason went to the same high school as me, but was there when my brother was in school, and Lori and I did a show called Piecemeal at the Majestic a few years ago.
We hung out at their place for a while and pregamed. Had a few drinks, but what really got me going was these Rummy Bears that Jason made. Rum soaked Gummy Bears. I did not like the taste, but what I found to be good about them was that I could just let them slide down my throat. WOO. Apparently like 3 of them equaled one shot. I had at least 15... possibly 20.. or more. I lost count.
So I was sufficiently boozed up and we went down town to the East Village to this bar called Marie's Crisis. Let me tell you, if there was ever a bar built for Bryan, it was this one. Small place, and there is a piano on one wall. And everyone stands around this piano all night. The guy plays. What does he play? Showtunes. DONE. Also... everyone there knows EVERY. SINGLE. WORD. It was quite heavenly for me.
My friend Lori got to sing solo which was great and kinda got "discovered" and offered an audition for The Voice. Pretty fancy stuffs. We also met this guy, Troy, that Lori had done The 25th Annual Putnam County Spelling Bee with at the Majestic a couple years ago. Lori foolishly told us that he was single before we got there. So.... well, ok. I'll preface this with the fact that I had a whole debacle with the Spelling Bee my senior year of HS. It was incredibly frustrating, but it's far too long a story to tell here and now. Any how.. so I saw Lori and Luis (another one of my friends) in the show. And I love it so much, I added the rest of the cast on Facebook because I wanted to know them. hahaha
So I don't know if I had ever really met Troy before, but I've seen him on the book of faces often enough. And come to find out... he'd seen me ;). SO. We like... re-meet at the bar. And fairly quickly we start to come in contact with each other. You know... in the ways.
I mean that was a fun night. Singing showtunes, drinkin drinks, makin out. Ultimately I ended up going home alone, which was probably for the best because I have serious issues with not caring about getting a home run my first time up to bat. And thus far, mainly, it hasn't ended all that well for me when things begin like that.
Friday night was enjoyable. Saturday night was enjoyable for different reasons. I planned to just have a lazy night with my roommate. Didn't happen too much. Ended up going to Shake Shack with her and then one of her friends met us there and came back here. Then I had to go collect for BC/EFA at Wicked and when I got back... we started drinking. In all reality, I didn't have that much, but I was pretty crazy. But I was crazy before I even began drinking.. so I dont know.
Earlier in the day I had texted R (from The Sparrow party about a month ago... see blog post Sometimes We Have Messy Hair) I knew he would be at The Sparrow that day so I asked how he liked it. He stopped talking to me about 2 weeks ago. So I was actually very surprised to get a response. And eventually he asked if I was going to this Fundraiser for an NYU show at Brad's down by NYU. I went to that and saw him and also G (kid who wanted me and then ignored me after I got him a ticket and brought him to Into The Woods in the park in August. Yeah.. he's kinda a bitch). But things were mostly awkward.
That all made me sad because it seemed that things with R were going well, and then at some point, I was completely undesirable. I have no idea why. I don't know what I did wrong. And even if I were to ask (which would be awks) I wouldnt get an answer. I truly dont understand why I'm apparently really attractive for one night (that must require alcohol) and then I am worthless and get ignored constantly.
So there we are. It all seems to come back to that awfully quickly. I also never told you about the guy who is crazier than I am! But this post is plenty long enough already.
See you around the blogosphere!
Monday, October 22, 2012
HOLY FING TIME
Ok.
There is no way time can be moving this quickly.
I have too much homework to get done.
I got home. And spent a HALF HOUR writing a text message to D. That's finally officially over and I've explained my crazy actions in a non crazy way. FINALLY. Feels really good to come to peace with it. But still must it really have taken me that long?! My feelings come out in the form of WAY too many digital words.
Then I was planning my DATE tomorrow night. DA F***? Since when does this happen? Dinner and a show. For realz. Going to Da Rosina and then seeing the first preview of The Performers. Doing that took a WHILE.
Then I had to catch up on the Facebook and Twitters. (I did not HAVE to do this, but I did. We all know I did.)
Then I went through my approx 30 emails from TODAY alone! GAH That took some time.
And here we are almost at 8:30.
I still haven't even eaten DINNER yet!
Then I have to get on the HW bus.
Then I have to go friggin VOLUNTEER for BC/EFA.
Then when I get back I have to do tons more homework so that I DONT have to do anything tomorrow because I just simply wont have time. (My guess is the date wont elongate to after the show at all, but I don't want HW to be the reason that it can't.)
Ok here I go.
There is no way time can be moving this quickly.
I have too much homework to get done.
I got home. And spent a HALF HOUR writing a text message to D. That's finally officially over and I've explained my crazy actions in a non crazy way. FINALLY. Feels really good to come to peace with it. But still must it really have taken me that long?! My feelings come out in the form of WAY too many digital words.
Then I was planning my DATE tomorrow night. DA F***? Since when does this happen? Dinner and a show. For realz. Going to Da Rosina and then seeing the first preview of The Performers. Doing that took a WHILE.
Then I had to catch up on the Facebook and Twitters. (I did not HAVE to do this, but I did. We all know I did.)
Then I went through my approx 30 emails from TODAY alone! GAH That took some time.
And here we are almost at 8:30.
I still haven't even eaten DINNER yet!
Then I have to get on the HW bus.
Then I have to go friggin VOLUNTEER for BC/EFA.
Then when I get back I have to do tons more homework so that I DONT have to do anything tomorrow because I just simply wont have time. (My guess is the date wont elongate to after the show at all, but I don't want HW to be the reason that it can't.)
Ok here I go.
Sunday, October 21, 2012
Biddies
So I had a fantastic day with my Bushnell Biddies yesterday!
We had some grub, then took a roundabout trip to Molly's Cupcakes. THOSE THINGS ARE AMAZING. Then we recreated some artsy pictures we took earlier this year and added some more fun ones. We then parted ways for a bit, but I hunted them down at this bar called Therapy and we had quite the time there. Then Amanda broke her sandal. And we got her some green slippers. Now they are gone and my life is not as fun anymore.
We had some grub, then took a roundabout trip to Molly's Cupcakes. THOSE THINGS ARE AMAZING. Then we recreated some artsy pictures we took earlier this year and added some more fun ones. We then parted ways for a bit, but I hunted them down at this bar called Therapy and we had quite the time there. Then Amanda broke her sandal. And we got her some green slippers. Now they are gone and my life is not as fun anymore.
Here are some select pictures from the day.
Saturday, October 20, 2012
Why Am I Awake?
So it seems that after I have some dranks, I always wake up really early the next day. Particularly this is the case today. I was like awake and functioning before 7am and I don't have anywhere to be or anything that must be done before 1pm. BUT WHAT?! Seriously... I wonder why this happens, because almost every time it does.
Strange. But at least this way I get some extra time to do things... like talk to you!
Oh also... Last night I was at this bar this man who I have mutual friends with started making the conversations with me. Then we drifted ways for quite some time and I was going to leave because I thought, well nothing is going to be happening, but then he beckoned me over to sit with him. So I did and things seemed to be going fine, but then he leans over to me and say "I think you're really cute, but I'm kinda seeing someone right now." WELL THEN. A lot of good that does me. Though I suppose it's not bad to get a ground floor of attraction laid down so that later on if he becomes not seeing someone, then perhaps things may occur.
So today, I've got PHTS Parents Day. So I get to show the freshman and their parents some fun things at PHTS for a bit and then I get to hang out with my Bushnell Biddies! And later on this evening, I have plans to go clubbing for the first time with my friend Kim! WOOT! Sounds like a blasty blast of a day to me.
What have you got going on on this fine Saturday.
P.S. Yesterday was rainy. I was in class, and after semi-groping my attractive teacher whilst blindfolded, I was leaving and started to sing Tomorrow from Annie for some UNKNOWN reason, but then I reveled in the fact that the words I was saying were actually truth!
Strange. But at least this way I get some extra time to do things... like talk to you!
Oh also... Last night I was at this bar this man who I have mutual friends with started making the conversations with me. Then we drifted ways for quite some time and I was going to leave because I thought, well nothing is going to be happening, but then he beckoned me over to sit with him. So I did and things seemed to be going fine, but then he leans over to me and say "I think you're really cute, but I'm kinda seeing someone right now." WELL THEN. A lot of good that does me. Though I suppose it's not bad to get a ground floor of attraction laid down so that later on if he becomes not seeing someone, then perhaps things may occur.
So today, I've got PHTS Parents Day. So I get to show the freshman and their parents some fun things at PHTS for a bit and then I get to hang out with my Bushnell Biddies! And later on this evening, I have plans to go clubbing for the first time with my friend Kim! WOOT! Sounds like a blasty blast of a day to me.
What have you got going on on this fine Saturday.
P.S. Yesterday was rainy. I was in class, and after semi-groping my attractive teacher whilst blindfolded, I was leaving and started to sing Tomorrow from Annie for some UNKNOWN reason, but then I reveled in the fact that the words I was saying were actually truth!
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